Feeling like a fatty, but things are bout to change!

So, this week has been the week from HELL! Did I mention that I am an emotional eater? Well, I am, and this week was very emotional, so I really wanted to throw my diet out the window and just be a whale. I tried really hard not to undo all of the hard work that I put in though, and only cheated on my diet a few times. I am waiting for my Advocare to come in the mail, and I am really motivated, especially now that I have found a few friends to take the challenge with me. I am much less likely to give up if I am accountable to someone. Tonight a friend mentioned that she thought my face looked thinner and that the shirt I was wearing (and will continue to wear everyday for the rest of my life) made me look thinner. PS: I hope you all like this current shirt, because it's my new fave!
So this week, I mentioned was super emotional, I found out that my little girl has a cyst on her brain. Could be benign and may just be monitored over her growth, but could also need intervention... INTERVENTION?!? Like, you want to intervene in my child's skull??? Where are the damn oreos? This is why I have had a hard time staying on my diet this week. I wish I was one of those people that, if a tragedy occurs, they can't bare the thought of eating a leaf of lettuce, and just a drop of water hitting their tongue makes them puke...no, I am not this type of person. I get stressed, and my first craving is for c.a.r.b.s. UGH! I hate it! It was much easier when I just allowed myself to consume diet pills, celery and water. There is no screwing that up.
This time, I am determined to be healthy, get lose weight, and feel better about myself. I used to think that I wanted to get thin for my husband, or to be more attractive to the world, or even to feel like I am not invisible to other people, but now, for the first time in my life, I can honestly say, that I am doing this for ME!